I went months without cutting.
Then I started again, now it's out of control I can't stop.
This time it's burning, not cutting.
I know things are bad when I resort to burning.But I have nobody to turn to.
Therapist is away until tuesday.
I don't want to be burning myself
But it's the only way I can stop myself killing myself.
I'm in so much pain.
I feel so bad for having broken so long without cutting
I feel so out of control.
I wish there was someone I could tell.
Or someone who could tell me it will all be okay.
I could do with kind words or a hug.
Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories.
*esky gives frankie and huge huggle* i'm here for you hun if you ever need a chat. ive been a big burner over the years so know the pain and struggle. was there anythinng that made you start burning again?
could you try calling the gp maybe to have a chat?
*huggles* xxxxxxxxxxxxx
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
good luck hun. i hope everything goes well. try to be as honest as possible.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
I went, I saw the random registrar
She thinks i'm crazy...=[
She says If I keep on like this i'm going to kill myself by accident.
If I kill myself, it wont be an accident.
I have an infection and I have to get it redressed on friday
More looks, more sighs, more 'how could you do this to yourself?'
She wants me on more antipsychotics.
What a joke, i'm not psychotic.
A hug would be nice.
Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories.
(lots of hugs)
I'm sorry to hear you had to see someone as ill-equipped with knowledge. I've been stuck with those kinda GPs before and it's infuriating.
:( *Hugglessss lots and lots with a packet of jelly tots*
I had a jab earlier and my arm really hurts >;/
But anyway
Urges sound strong at the moment :( Quite a few people seem to be getting them bad. Maybe it's cause some are in the new term and it's all stressy n stuff? Idk. It's whats making me resort to it anyway!
Im sorry you feel so out of control :( Idk what to say really,
SH won't give you control? Heard it alllllllll before
Along with "you won't always feel like this" (although i do actually find this one particularly useful) i never could spell particularly. Still dont know if im doing it right.
Hope you find the strength to get through this, you dont need burning.
xx
"I grew up in Slough in the 1970's. If you want to know what Slough was like back then, go there now." -Jimmy carr
"Swimming is good for you. Speshly if you're drowning" - Jimmy carr
Me: Mum what are you doing for ur 20th anniversary? Mum: BIG party time! .. Dunno what your dads doing.
sending huge huggles, sorry to hear you have an infection, but i am so proud of you for showing the dr...even if she does think you are a bit mad (dont listen to them, they dont know everything) glad you are getting the burn redressed, it help in the long run
hope your ok bubs, you know where i am if you need me :) xxxxxx
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
