Hey,
Welcome to RYL :) It's completely natural to be afraid of speaking about how you feel & what is happening for you but you don't need to be afraid on RYL. It's a really lovely, supportive & friendly community and nobody judges anybody.
If you don't want to post on the boards you could always e-mail the 'Supporters' as a starting point, their e-mail address (I hope/think) is
support@recoveryourlife.com
Take care lovely & hope you feel able to talk soon,
Lotti x