Triggering (SI/Abuse) - The Faye Is Brilliant Thread - Page 2

AbandonedPixie · 04-10-2008, 03:42 PM

Faye <3

Luffs you lotses and you are indeed brilliant:)

xx

Kuwairo · 04-10-2008, 10:47 PM

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Faye is a self centred little whore
who needs to die.
I dont care what anyone says its the truth
she needs to cut and hurt as much as possible
she deserves it
If you havent worked out who this is im sure Laura can fill you in.

It may be Tom's truth but his truth is majorly warped.
Tom, I know you're angry with me, and that's ok. I'm going against everything you believe in. Faye is one of the least self centred people I know. I'm so so glad she's alive cos I love being her friend. And I wish you didn't make her believe what you tell her. Not only is it cruel but it's a lie.
Tom, by the way, is a voice that Faye has to deal with on a regular basis. He abuses her in the ways she is/has been emotionally abused in the past. Kind of like all her abuse personified in her head, if you get me. I'm not too sure how to help her quiet him down, any advice would be much appreciated.
Faye, could you tell the doctor again? Let him know that Tom is getting louder, and violent?

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Originally Posted by SimplyScared

No baby. *cuddles you & wraps you in duvae's*
Faye you are such an amasing, brilliant and stunning individual. I'm so lucky and happy to have made you as a friend.
You deserve nothing but love & happiness and have had to deal with masses of grief & pain.
You deserved nothing of what happened & you've been so brave in writing it all down.
You are in no way to blame for anything, nor should you let yourself feel intimidated by anyone else.
You are beautiful, inside and out.
One day you shall see it. I just wish that day was today.
I Love you
<3

This is basically my sentiments written better.

*Fading_existence* · 04-10-2008, 10:55 PM

Laura, Tom isnt angry at you. Its me i spoke and i shouldnt have done. Must learn to be better.
No telling doctor. That would be bad. Very bad.

Kuwairo · 04-10-2008, 10:58 PM

I'd rather he was angry at me than you, he can't hurt me.
Talking is GOOD.
Please try and tell the doctor hun, I know you want more help hun. And I think you need the extra support.

*Fading_existence* · 04-10-2008, 11:08 PM

Its ok, i get used to it. Its fine. Only what i deserve.
I want you to take that line and use it for yourself.
I dont know im scared. I dont deserve help. Ill probably end up lying as usual about how im fine and doing better.

Kuwairo · 04-10-2008, 11:16 PM

Write it down, keep it in your hand as you go in. That way you can just put it on the table as soon as you sit down, and tell him to read it.
You DON'T DESERVE ANY OF THIS!

*Fading_existence* · 04-10-2008, 11:18 PM

No, lies are best. Means less questions.
Means i can carry on with my secret life of destruction and unhappiness.
I do its ok, toms helping me understand more now.

Kuwairo · 04-10-2008, 11:21 PM

Not true.
You know that really, you said yourself you want extra help.
Tom isn't at all hun. He's not the voice of truth. When people have voices in their heads hun it's never a good thing. You know I'm speaking from experience and not being patronising (I hope). This voice needs to be quitened. I think you know this too.

*Fading_existence* · 04-10-2008, 11:28 PM

Only cause they tried to force me and i wanted them off my back.
Hun Tom likes me really, he may hurt me but its for my best interests altho saying that i know your right. I just feel with him it all feels so normal and right with what he says.

Kuwairo · 09-10-2008, 02:17 PM

Hun, say Tom was a real person. If you saw him bullying someone, and he said it was because he likes them and wants them to be good, would you believe that? Even if the bullied person agreed, would you believe it? Bullied people often lie about being bullied out of fear, and that's no different whether they are real or in someone's head.
It feels normal because it's all you know, but that doesn't make it right.
Sorry I'm so late in replying.

*Fading_existence* · 09-10-2008, 03:41 PM

hun i would agree, but you see i talked about tom to my psychiatrist and she didnt know what to say really. I told her he was honest with me and told me the truth about how bad and ugly i am and how he tries to make me cut. Hes ruining my so called good work on my ed. But its ok hes making me see things others have tried to show me that are not right but he shows me hes only being honest.

I tried to talk about him, my brother all the bullying and now all i can feel is hate from tom and im living in fear, fear of my life, fear of my safety, security and sanity.

Kuwairo · 09-10-2008, 09:20 PM

None of that makes Tom right.
It's rubbish that the psych didn't help much - maybe she hasn't really experienced this kinda thinkg before in a client? Could you maybe try again with him/her?
He isn't being honest. He's a voice your brain has formulated possibly as an effect of the bullying you've suffered. Your brain is ill right now.
If you feel unsafe is there anyone you can be with?
Talking about the abuse you've suffered is the right thing to do, I promise you!

*Fading_existence* · 09-10-2008, 10:04 PM

I dont know she was really nice about it all and said different therapy would be better to deal with it and that i could always talk to her or if in crisis see the duty manager but thats hard given i dont live that way anymore.
Hun i promise you he is, if i agree with him i dont get punished so much. Sorry.
No, im not safe and i cant be with anyone im with my family well my bros around somewhere :s
Talking hurts too much i cant talk anymore.

CrazyChaoticMess · 13-10-2008, 06:16 AM

=[ why i only ust see this
Faye baby *cuddles lots and luffs*
I know talking hurts but will help *nods*
Only a pm away if you ever needs me k xxxx

*Fading_existence* · 14-10-2008, 03:18 PM

Thanks sweetie
Loves you all :)
xxxxx

Born to be broken · 14-10-2008, 07:44 PM

sorry so late only just got let out.... faye...sweetiepie ... you are mazing u rea;;y are u mean loads to mee... my angel :)... i love you loads... and one day u will see how amazing u are, and how many lifes need you.... take care ... love you and need u soo much... XxX

*Fading_existence* · 14-10-2008, 08:08 PM

Huni im always here for you, you know that anytime night or day. But you will see one day how evil and disgusting faye is. How ugly and vile that i am that i cant cut away the badness however much i try.

Kuwairo · 14-10-2008, 08:14 PM

Hun, I know I discussed this with you already, but just wanted to reiterate that you're NOT vile at all. Or ugly, for that matter.
<3

*Fading_existence* · 14-10-2008, 08:18 PM

I know hun, but im at the point if i see my face in the mirror i want to be sick. I cant even cut the way i want to -how pathetic. I am so ugly my rant explains this a bit. Mum said how fat i was again and how i should be loosing more weight.