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The ex is back in town. (poss trig?)
The guy i was dating for a year or so has come back from travelling for 3 months.
We had a bit of a volatile relationship. It was good and meaningful and powerful and intense and fast moving but it was also bad and full of stupidity.
Anyway.
He's back from travelling and just a car journey away.
Little sh*t.
I hate him but thats still something.
That means he still gets to me and that he still bothers me.
He's not nothing.
He was so harsh at the end.
He did a lot of stuff and said a lot of stuff to me and he actually made me slip up.
He ruined one hell of a dry spell (s/h wise). In fact - i trusted him enough to tell him about it and i cant believe he didnt even notice.
He didnt even notice the fresh wound. It wasnt too big but if he cared, he should have put two and two together.
He should have noticed.
It drives me mad to think that i let him be that way.
It drives me mad to think that im still bothered and that i still want to hear about him through mutual friends.
I know he's a good for nothing and i know he screwed me over and i know he's not even worth my time or energy but he just wont get out of my head.
sorry for going on a bit, he's just really gotten to me and i don't know what to do!
i wrote this to try explain whats going on now that he's firmly lodged in my brain:-
'You just couldn't resist.
You're too much for me.
You've left me suffocating.
Drowning in an ocean of emotions.
Why couldn't you have just stayed away?'
Last edited by Puppet Strings : 07-10-2008 at 07:35 AM.
Reason: Removed picture. Triggering, and may be tipsharing to some - methods of self-harm/suicide shown.
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