Triggering (SI/Suicide) - stupid idea

[nothing_else_matters]

i cant go on like this. putting on a happy front all day and then coming home and crying, cutting, not sleeping. i cant do it.

so i have a plan...

im gonna go! run away to London. but how?? where do i go when i get there?? what is sleeping rough like?? anyone done it before??

i have this vision of myself sitting in a station slashing at my arms and there being blood everywhere and people staring and me not caring.

maybe slashing until i die....

maybe slashing til i end up in hospital... would they contact my parents?? would they admit me for psychiatric treatment??

maybe nothing would happen... sit there slashing but not brave enough to cut so deep. all night sitting crying, even that has to be better then this!

am i being completely ridiculous?? it feels like i am but i dont know what else to do!

[Breeze]

Running away makes things a lot worse. Sleeping rough in London is HARSH stuff. Dangerous, cold, lonely.
If your seen in public to be harming yourself the police will proberbly be involved.
I'm not sure how old you are. But your parents will no doubt report you missing and be informed as soon as someone notices your young, alone and troubled with SI.

I would think through anything your planning and look at the pros and cons. To be honest apart from the initial pro of being away there is nothing really else that is good about it at all.
I have 'fled' many times and it just is no good at all. I have ended up in hospital, in police cells (for my own safety) Even had a attempted rape on 2 occasions.
Think seriously before taking such action.

Is there someone you can stay with for a while to get away,safely? Like another family member or a good friend?

How old are you?

What is making you want to get away from it all?

PM me if you want to talk.

[SurvivingMockingbird]

Like Sh, Ed, Od, running is another way that we hope will slove are problems but it wont and its not the way out.

Is there anyone you can talk too?

And sleeping in london - not only is it a highly populated area, not nessiarly full of bad people - but there are some. Dont put urself up for rape and stuff by making surless homless - becuase it can happen

[nothing_else_matters]

im 15 and i just cant take it anymore. everything and everyone. theres no where i can go to run away from myself and thats all i really wanna do. i cant focus on anything. the only thing that makes me happy is drama. thats it! there has got to be something else out there and i want to find it. no more miss small town. i will probaly end up dead tbh. sorry to waste space.