Possibly Triggering - One Month Free Yesterday

[Starlightembers]

First off, I'd like to apologize for going away without any warning not long after joining the boards. My computer decided it wanted to have an argument with me, and had a major crash that required some professional help to fix. We ended up having to wipe it clean, but all is good now.

Though it may seem odd to you all, the computer situation was very meaningful to me. It represented a major change in my life - my outlook on it all, what I believe, and other such related topics. The old me would have watched it crash, and upon failing to get it to start back up, angrily walked away in defeat. I would of reached for a blade, a container of pills, and a bottle of wine. My mind would run away from its problems, tears rolling down with a stabbing guilt.

Well, that me is no longer in control.

Since June 28th, my life has been improving at a drastic rate. I learned to cope, to carry on without being afraid to live or walk athis worldlone at times. Hope has been installed as a shining light that heals the broken, and I am no longer waking up every morning in sharp pain. I thank a band, its lyrics mystically dark, for this improvement: My Chemical Romance. They gave me the will to rebuild my shattered life, the patching up officially marked on August 7th of last month.

That day was the day I gave a big "F*ck You!" to the alcohol, pills, and self-injury of all sorts. The day I began to live again, breath for the first time in a very long while. And as of yesterday morning, it has been one month since that day - one month free. Yesterday was an amazing day as well; I had a friend over, and I went to see a band known as Reggie and The Full Effect on their farewell tour in New York City. (Also with Warship, Leathermouth, and MC Chris) I came home with my ears ringing, head throbbing, and legs hurting; but it was all worth it. (I'll post screencaps from my footage if you want~)

Sorry for the rather long post,
xx Starlightembers

[crazykat]

Thats brilliant to hear, well done on being a monthn free. It sounds like you have the right attitude to fight this as well. Good for you. Keep it up hunny. Take care
Kat xxx

[Cazki]

Congratulations on being a month free!! Im very pleased for you. Keep up the great work! Your doing brilliant!!

Take care all the best Ian xxx

[Starlightembers]

<3 Thank you both, your comments made me feel proud of myself - reassured me that being a month free means something. I can't wait for two to roll around.

[one_step_closer]

Wow, that is SO fantastic. Very well done.

[falling tears]

weldone weldone. Go you. Big hugs and kisses

[Porcelain Child]

Well done you should be so proud of yourself..

Keep fighting it you can do it...

PM box always open..

Claire...