SHUT THE FUCK UP please please stop talkign so loudly its not fair
im being moody and irrational but i dont care shut up i dont talk right outside your room
shut up or come in and see me. i need a hug or to scream at you
i'm fed up of this tedious circle
i had an ok and controlled summer and i didn't do it that much - i thought i did pretty well managing it
but now it's gone wrong
i want to do it more and more and more
it wont go away
i cant stop it
it's getting worse not better
help me? please? i wouldn't ask if i wasn't failing myself and everyone else
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
Allie,
I hate you. I litterly hate you. How can you look at someone and judge them because they're being themself? If you even begun to knew the things i do to myself because of YOU, you'd make fun of me behind my back like crazy. I know you laugh at me when i'm not around because you think you're just so god damn great. but you're not your a cold cold person.
you
I can't even begin to explain how you make me feel... you've stuck by me for so long its crazy. If anybody knew i felt this way about you it would be the end of me. But you can also make me feel horrible just being around you makes me want to see myself bleed because of all the pain it brings to me to pretend to smile with you and her. you love her. i love you. so i bleed.
Madison,
when i look at you all happy with your friends i'm jelous. you're only 7 and you look up to me like i am the best thing in the world. it makes me hate myself for what i do. i know what i do will hurt you for your whole life if you ever were exposed to it. I love you, you're my sister and the only reason i'd stop..
I'm going to miss you so much when I'm away...please dont forget me, im scared when i get back things will be different...please please dont forget me, please still be there when I get back...
Your supposed to hate people who treat you like shit, right?
Well how come i love you?
I actually love you, you have that power over me, that i can't get rid of. You will do nothing wrong in my eyes. Even if you say you hate me, say that I mean nothing to you, I will still love you, I still need you.
I don't mind if you hate me, I suppose it's better than not caring about me.
I need you, please, I want to make things okay, i just dont know how, everytime I speak to you, an arguement flares up, i'm only trying to do the right thing.
I'm sorry for everything that i've done to hurt you, i'm sorry i'm such a major fuck up, I can't do anything right, I sorry I hurt you so much.
I'm not here to hurt you,
I want to be here for you,
here to help you,
I want you to be here for me.
When we were friends for a couple of days,
I was on top of the world.
Please, I love you.
x
Idk what to sat, i act like i do, or like i can even help when i can't. i'm sorry i can't help, im sorry i can't be strong for you, but know that i love you...
I know you were drunk and just generally chattin shit, but what you said almost made me cry, you know i love you, but you also know i find it hard to say that i love you, i understand the cercumstance, you have to main girls in your life, me being one, i know this and you are most definetly classed as one of my boys, but you can't do this to me! I need you safe baby, be good, your amazing such a great man and you've acomplished so so so so so so so much, you just need to get past the self loathing, and you know as soon as i turn 18 your getting a massive hug and a slap in the back of the head, you meat head you!! I fucking love you, you know that right!!
My brain is so beyond dead that I cant feel anything but the throbbing in my hand. Ahhhhh.
Stephanie, please forgive us. We absolutely had to do it. Your life was in danger, and I think it still is because I know you're still talking to him despite the fact that all of us stayed up late and forced him out of your house. We sat there and told you we LOVE you. Please don't do this to yourself.
I feel terrible for helping do that to you and putting you on the spot in friends and family...but he told you he was goign to kill you. He slammed your head into the car door, for god's sake. How can you go back to that? How?
I see you've taken me out of your Screan name =\ umm ok...
And i loved you little added be about how no-one knows the meaning of the owrd friend, if you can't tell im being sarcastic..
And hah as if you of all people, as if you think you can talk about friendship, anyway if everyone is blanking me fuck you all...
It hurts, thats all im going to say...