I am on Vacation right now and tonight my cousin who only get to see when I am here (2 weeks out of the year) and I were talking and I mentioned how I forgot to take my meds last night and she asked me what I was taking so I told her Zoloft. She gave me a shocked look and asked what the hell I was taking it. I told her for anxiety and depression. She said oh and that started to talk about how since I told her I was a cutter she's seen it more and more (she works and a day care place that is for all ages). Anyway she assumed I had stopped and I told her no. She told me that she was shocked because I was wearing shorts (Last time I came I refused to wear shorts) and I told her that didn't mean anything. So she thought about it for a moment and said "oh, so you've just gotten smarter, not that that's good"... It made me feel sad because she looked disappointed. I don't know what it is lately but my cousins have been making me want to stop even more... I have another cousin who stopped cutting and she told me that she had faith in me that I could stop... I haven't cut since then
... I am trying so hard right now but my dad is making it so much harder... I only have 11 days until I go to college for my first year. I want to make it until then and then past that.....
