Triggering (SI) - how do i stop

[sandy123]

hurting myself

im pushing my back again.


i am under overwhelming stress and when i self injure i push on my back.



i have week bones and a spine that "colaapses" i dont have good muscles. i have broken my bones


im overwhelmed and need to stop because its worse than cutting and i dont cut

[Stellata]

What is it that's overwhelming you, Sandy?

[raistlin]

I hope you are feeling a bit better now though. Like mentioned above, what's causing you so much stress? And way you can ask your doctor or someone for anti-anxity meds? I think just telling us about what's bothering you, may help you to feel a little better. Most people feel a bit of a relief when you share what's bothering you with others. Maybe give that a try. Couldn't hurt.

[sandy123]

i told in the post below. my father is severely abusing me and im sick and dying and disabled.

i have so much pain. so much unbearable emotional pain every day. because after i got disabled my father beat me because i wanted to leave to a doctor appointment and my mother joined and beat me too. they left bruises on me and i think they broke my pelvis because for months i couldnt walk. i was wobbling and holding onto counters and taking slow steps. and it was unbearable what they did to me.

right after he beat me he called the cops on me. i hid at a neighbors house but as i was sneaking away the cops caught me and handcuffed me and shoved me into an ambulance. they hsopitalized me for a few weeks in a mental hosptial afterwards because my father said i acted out. the refused to give medical care to me

i came home shocked. i asked the police to let me press charges and they wouldnt.

people in my home severely abuse me.

it was too much to deal with and now my father slaps me with court prders hes gone to court against me 5 times because i walk too slow. he threatens to call the cops if i dont get down the stairs fast enough.

im disabled and cANt WALK PARTLY BECAUSE of what he did to me and he screams at me all day. im 25 yrs old. he controls me

i think im going to die. i am anyways but i dont know what to do

[Animad]

Have you spoken to a doctor? I think it would help because it sounds like you need a lot of support right now.

Is there any way how you can move away from them? If they are going to treat you like this then it is severely risking your health and you really should try and escape from it if possible.

Sorry, I've not got much more I can say apart from when you feel like you need to hurt yourself then try and distract yourself whether that is by watching tele, writing, reading, listening to loud music, coming on here, whatever, it may help you a lot.

Kim

[katietoo]

I agree, try your doctor again. they will listen to you
dont give up hope