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Triggering (SI) - i dont know what to do
im scared
i dont think i should deal with this.
when i was 22 i self injured myself becayse my father screamed at me and because of my mother.
since then ive been crippled and in pain every day.m 25 now. i just turned 25 and this happened right before i happened to be 23. so its 2 years
its driving me crazy every day since then my father has been determined to not allow me to get better, he screams at me every day. he beat me , he tries to get me not to have food.
he threatens me and locks me away for no reason.
i spent over 100 days sitting in either psych ers or mental hospitals being evaluated for lies he told.
he getting really crazy,. he can kill someone
he treats me sister like crap. she wanted to help me. shes the only one who can help me get better.
and he screams at her and treats her like crap because he knows shes helping me and he wants to scare her and put pressure for her to not care.
and hes determined that she leaves me.
shes 18 now and leaving to college. she got mean to me recently. im not sure why. but she can help me.
but my family treats her like crap. they wont talk to her my other sisters scream at her my other sister threatened to her hurt in a playful way.
my mother and father dont speak to her. she has health problems and my mother wouldnt take her to a doctor when she has gastrointestinal bleeding.
my father wouldnt give her money for stuff.
they treat her like crap. all of a sudden shes leaving me and now they love her. my mother talks to her about her new apartment and they want o buy her furniture. my father calmded down and helps her look for apartments and pushes her into getting furniture and finding a roommate
hes very determined that she leaves.
they still are mean to her. the only thing they talk to her is about moving.
my whole family only pays attention to her if its about the topic of her leaving me.
my logic says itsn only because they want her to leave me.
anywaYS its not fair.
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