Summer SAD

Rilic · 01-04-2017, 04:08 AM

Is this a thing?
I find sunlight awful. It's bright, blinding, painful, disorienting. The heat makes me uncomfortable and feel ill constantly. So throughout summer, I'm more depressed, angry, manic, my moods are careening all over the place.
I feel incredibly dissociated going out. So I become more isolated because I try to stay away from outside until evening time when it's cooler, darker. It's harder to be around people because... too many sense being attacked and overwhelmed at once, I guess.

Sketchy · 01-04-2017, 03:11 PM

This sounds very distressing for you. Could you talk to someone about it? A professional? It sounds like you could do with some help in getting through this.

Sooty · 03-04-2017, 02:33 PM

I don't know whether this comes under the official SAD diagnosis however I do believe all the things you described are very much real. It makes sense that the summer can bring all these feelings of distress and I relate to some of them. For me personally I feel more anxious wearing fewer clothes and showing my body shape and scars etc I also overheat and feel sick like you. SAD is seasonal affective disorder and this is you being affected mental health wise by the change in season so it does make perfect sense.

Sophie.x

Rilic · 04-04-2017, 04:58 AM

Yeah. There's always that, scars, I'm always covered up, it drives me wild. I've used what feels like a truck load of cool spray cans in the last few years.

I'm gonna talk to staff where I live about first, just because already there's been days where I've been snappish, when I'm normally extremely placid despite how I feel.
They already know I'm pretty nocturnal, probably explain to them why I don't want to do anything involving going out just in case it's hot and bright.

Straight 3 · 12-04-2017, 03:57 PM

Yeah, I also have this problem, for mostly the same reasons as listed above.

I stopped covering up the scars and they are visible wearing short sleeves shirts, and shorts. But I'm going to try to not worry as much this summer as much. People have no idea what I've been through and I did that best I could to cope without any support or helps from other people. People don't get the right to judge me; nobody is perfect. I'm not happy with my body shape either, but I'm also going to not care as much as I did going forward. People walk around with this smokin' hot attitude, when in reality, 9 out of 10 times they're out of shape and very average in the looks department themselves.

I guess the only thing that's changed is that I don't care as much what other people think as the years go by. People have done NOTHING but add to my stress and have only contributed to my worsening mental health and low self-esteem, so people don't deserve to have so much power over me. I don't think very highly of other people anymore sadly and I realize its me in this world alone and I shouldn't stay hidden away because I don't fit in with what society thinks I should be, or look like.

But again, summer can be much more challenging for many. I hope things improve for you and you will find a way to enjoy the nice weather. I won't be easy, but worth it, I think.