about 8 months.... its so hard!!

[bexie]

ok so got to 8 months and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
iv now got alot of crap goin on again
and i just feel that i need to cut again...
talking to my bf last night he said you dont need to you'v got this far dosent that prove it.
i just really dont know what to do to let my feelings out and to try and get things out of my system!
any ideas guys?
love always xxxxxxxxxx

[Sooty]

First of all..... CONGRATULATIONS on 8 months... thats' fantastic.

Your boyfriend I'm afraid, is very much wrong... a person who hasn't cut in years can still feel urges.

Try writing down all the things that you are finding hard to cope with and try and break them down into smaller and more managable problems and challenges.

If you are looking for a release of emotions... have you tried screaming into a pillow?... punching a pillow?... going for a run?... tearing up paper?... squeezing a tomato?...(that one is particularly satisfying especially goes squidge!) If you over come these urges now... think how much stronger you are going to be when urges come in the future?

If you do however end up cutting, don't let it ruin your recovery... theses things happen. Slip-ups are as much a part of recovery than stopping. Good luck and keep strong. Take care
Sophie.x

[missm47]

8 months is a great acheivement and you should be very proud. recovering is never easy, chances are it hasn't been easy, and in the future you will face things that will tempt you and challange you, and should you choose too slip up remember it doesn't make you a failure. Rather accepting it, moving on and not letting it get too you is what makes eventual freedom and total recovery all the more satisfying. The erges may always be present in varing degrees, but everyone has the strength to resist should they choose too.

As for ways to "let it out" Try getting a large piece of paper a pen or pencil and just write randomly whatever comes into your head, words, sounds, shapes, sentences, random lines whatever and when the paper is full, rip it up or burn it , and do it again of you feel you need too.
Or you could write and draw on yourself, cover your whole body in words or drawings whatever your mind first impulses you to do and than get in the shower and wash it all off, again you can repeat this untill you feel all the s**t is gone.

Hope I helped. Much luck.

Emma!
Edit: just realised this post was a while ago, still my comment still stands :) hope all is well

[ally_andria]

8 months is amazing your doing really well

your boyfriend is right you have broken the cycle now and shown that you can go 8 months without SHing so you can go longer.

just try and keep yourself distracted by keeping yourself busy

you can do it

if you need to talk to someone pm me anytime

love and hugs
billy

xoxox

[klo_flo]

Hey Darlin,

I know you have been through quite a lot recently and to still be 8 month SH free is a real acheivement and something you should be so proud of.

How are you finding things at the moment? Members above have touched on some key issues. SH is something used to help one cope and if something happens [and I know your world has been busy] and you struggle to deal with your emotions by vocalising them, writing them down, crying... whatever it is - it can be tempting to go back to something that used to work. However, that of course won't really change what is making you feel so sad.

Try your best to pin point why you are having these urges and what you think would be the most constructive way to help you [whilst tough, you are the best person to do this].

Take care of yourself and remember we are here =)

Chloe xx

[bexie]

i love you guys so mcuh!
atm im just crying over little things... so silly. like tonight i as at james' and i knocked his cds over n just strated crying!
im all over the place but yeeh
still havets self harmed.
thankyou guys xxxxxxxxxxx

[klo_flo]

Well done darlin... it's OK to be emotional hun - it's better to be feeling then not, and trying to do bad thing toooo feel.

Take care of yourself *hugs*

Chloe x