Triggering (Suicide) - Why?

[Diamonds.]

Why do i feel like my life gets harder everyday. Why do i feel my life has no meaning. I don't really belong alive. That EVERY single time i cut myself i wish i had that little bit more courage to press down a little harder and end it all. That every single person who i thought was nice or loved me abused me.

When i look at tablets in the draw i just want to take them all and make my pain go away. Everytime i look in the mirror i cry, because i look so ugly and fat. That everytime my boyfriend says "I love you" or "your gorgeous" i just can't believe him.

Whenever i see a knife i think "Yup one day, you'll end my life, for that i thankyou". WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?!

I feel i've let everyone down, that no-one really loves me and no one really likes me. Everyone on here will think im moaning, but im really not. Im so sorry. Im just a dirty little whore.


Sorry. x

[recovery_is_possible_]

Hun im so sorri you r feeling like this you r not a whore
please dont do anything
im here if u wanna talk

[Stellata]

I think you feel those things because you're feeling low, possibly depressed. That can make it hard to feel like you exist.
Also, when you've been hurt a lot in the past, that can make it hard to trust people, and also yourself.

I don't see you as moaning, I see you as unhappy and lonely. It's good that you reached out to us for help.

[Diamonds.]

Thankyou trace! Don't know what i'd do without you.

Love you x