depression

[moshiross]

Hi i havent been on here in a while but got the urge to cme back as im going through a real rough patch t min.
Dont know if this is right place to post appologies if not.
I am going through serious depression at minhave been to doc and they have given me citalopram 20mg and diazapam 5mg and sleeping tablets.
i have now started to have no appatite and am starving myself my dad was getting angry at me not eating so im now eating dinner and mking myself sick.
I have been having awful thoughts as to wondering what the point of my life is and hoping someone would run me over when crossing road.
i did have thoughts of taking life when i was walking dog through fields but as yet havent done anything.
My family are no support to me at all my friends are good to me but i dont like torturing them with my problems.
i need help and dont know what to do now.

[jen-x]

It really sounds like you need someone to talk to. Do you have any professionals on side? If not do u think you could see your gp?

look after yourself,

jen x

[moshiross]

thanks for reply
I have been to my gp and they have given me the tablets as i said they have not as yet after nearly 4 weeksatarted orking and they want to wait another 2 before they change them.
I have today contacted lifeline who are willing to give me professional support and counciling.
you are right jen id love to have someone just to sit and talk toi have a very good frien but dont like putting the pressure on them.

[Bump]

I understand what you are going through and I sympathise how hard everything must be for you right now. I have depression and have been on citalopram. I would be happy to talk to you. You can PM me anytime. I check RYL several times a day.

Take care of yourself,
Em

[moshiross]

well things have got a bit better but also worse.
i feel alot better within myself but my grandfather has been taken into hosp after two heart attacks but is making a very good and strong recovery.
the citalopram have now started working thank goodness and i am feeling very happy.
my friends have been very strong for me and helped pull me out of the hole i as in.

thanks to everyone for their replies all help and advice is welcome.