Its all f***ed up. I feel like such a failure i just wanna cut, and take enough of my meds that i can no longer feel like this. In the last 12 months i have lost my gf of 6 yrs (this time last yr we were planning a wedding), my mum no longer wants anything to do with me and is putting my dad through a messy divorce. I have not been at work this week cos im in too much to get on a bus and go in, and i now their busy and short staffed as i currently live with someone i work with whose on holiday this week and when i stumble out of my room for a smoke or cup of tea i get passive aggressive comments about how she thought i was ill. I just wanna give up fighting, i have had this disease for 17yrs and i feed up with the pain, with letting people down it screwing everything up. Arrggggggg. Idk want i want from posting i think i needed to say it out loud and you guys are the only people that l have.
Sorry for ranting
