Triggering (SI/OD) - I just can't handle it anymore

[dragonfly]

I don't know what i'm doing anymore, i'm just here but not here at the same time.

I want to scream and shout and cry and break stuff and cut and die.

I'm on my own upstairs but i don't feel alone, so many things going on in my body, so many emotions, feeling, urges, thoughts.

I'm so scared that i will do something, i'm scared because i so badly want to.

I want to go now.

Everyone keeps telling me that i'm better than this and i will get through it but i'm scared that i won't. I can't keep recovering, one day it'll get to much and i think today is that day.

I hate it all so much, i hurt so much and i'm not string enough this time to fight it

[Protège-Moi]

*Hugs*

You are strong enough, if today is the day that it's all too much then tomorrow can only be better.

Try to find some way of getting all those emotions out - writing, drawing, scribbling. Or just try and distract yourself - watch your favourite film, find something interesting on the net or read a good book.

Is there anyone you can talk to for support?

[Katiee]

Hun, you are strong enough.. believe in yourself. *hugs*
Is there someone you can that you are struggling right now?
Use distractions to take your mind off it. xo.