Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - feels like im failing

ladybug · 22-03-2009, 01:38 PM

ok
so lately it feels like ive been geting deeper into depression, maybe its because ive been considering going to the police about the SA.
but the problem is i havent been able to tell my counsellors about how i feel.
the worst thing is i keep forgetting to take my anti-depressants i dont mean to forget to i just do.
ive started cutting again and everytime i do i get so angry at myself not because ive done it but because i can go deeper.
i just dont know what to do.

Popple · 22-03-2009, 03:48 PM

Do you think you would be able to put your ad's somewhere you will see them everyday and maybe get one of those cheap containers that have a seperate thing for each day so you know if you have taken them.
Why do you think you can't tell your counsellor how you feel? Maybe it would help to write it down and give it to them because they can't help what they don't know.
I know its hard now but you will get through this love
Take care
x

ladybug · 22-03-2009, 06:03 PM

there always on the mantal peice atm - normally there in a locked box because of my ODs.

i cant tell her because i hardly ever see her anymore because shes from child services and im moving to adults soon so shes cutting down when she sees me and shes on leave atm.

Popple · 22-03-2009, 06:05 PM

Couldn't you move them to somewhere you can't get them easily.
If you think you are going to seriously hurt yourself or try kill yourself you can phone and ask to speak to someone. Someone will see you because they are there to help keep you safe or you could go to a&e.
x

ladybug · 22-03-2009, 06:16 PM

tbh the child and adolesant services around my area are so crap. the second time i ODed i told the emergancy psych i saw that day because they were really worried about me but anyway i told him that i was gunna kill myself and he sent me back to college. that night i ended up in hospital.

ad because im leaving child services theyve told me that if i tell adults i feel sui they will probably try to get me sectioned because of my history so i cant tell them how i feel either.

Katiee · 23-03-2009, 01:40 AM

Heyya,
I think you should tell your counsellor how you're feeling, this way he/she can give you the right support. *HUGS* Try and not forget to take your anti-depressants. I forget to take mine all the time. Maybe you should put a note up or something? or write it on your hand? Take care. xo.

ladybug · 23-03-2009, 12:52 PM

i think i might leave notes around the house.