Triggering (SI) - I don't know how much longer i can go with out it....Please i need advise

cocopuff300 · 17-03-2009, 01:48 AM

I've stopped cutting for now but i get so mad at my self, The last time i cut it was really deep and i scared if i cut again it will be bad.
My parents don't know and i don't know how to tell them, I'm scared they will get mad at me or put me in a hospital.
It's like every little thing sets me off and i've tried the 15 minute rule and the butterfly projet but things never work for to long

Please some one i need advise

Rachel

Kvieta Vindi · 17-03-2009, 01:55 AM

-Huggles-
I know too well how that must feel for you. Always remember that last cut- if it was so deep that it scared you and you fear it will be just as bad, try not to cut.

As for telling your parents.. That's a really though subject. My Guidance Counselor ended up telling mine, but they still wanted to talk. If you feel you're not ready to tell your parents, then don't tell them. I can guarantee you that they wont get mad. It may seem like it, but they're just worried about you. Even though I doubt that they will put you in a hospital, if they do, it's only in hopes of helping you.

As for distracting yourself, have you tried the Distraction's Page and the Big Distraction's List? I found that watching Disney movies has helped me to get through the urges. Just find anything that relaxes you. Surround yourself with people- you can't do anything while others are around.

If you ever need to talk, I'll be here- just send me a message. =)
Do you know what triggered the need to cut yourself?

Please take care. You will get through this, alright? I have faith in you.
♥ Jessica

Katiee · 17-03-2009, 01:57 AM

Hun, well done on not cutting so far. You can get through this and these urges will pass. *HUGS* Keep yourself busy, if possible. Watch TV, play online games, text/phone a friend, listen to music, have a bath/shower ect. Hang on and don't give up! Tell your parents if you want, it's your choice, but remember sometimes parents have negitive reactions to their childs self-harm. They might get angry or upset. They don't mean this, they just are probably confused, upset, worried, scared, not sure what to do/say. It can take some getting used to. When I told my mum it wasn't half as bad as I thought it was. She was very caring, supportive and understanding - even though she didn't fully understand self-harm until I explained it to her. Good luck with whatever you decide to do. Take care, sweetheart. xo.

cocopuff300 · 18-03-2009, 04:29 AM

i messed up tonight i cut again, over somthing so stupid i can't believe i did it....
Why is it soo HARD TO STOP ?
WHY CAN"T HE BE MORE SUPPORTIVE ?

Kvieta Vindi · 18-03-2009, 04:34 AM

-Huggles-
It will be alright.

So you slipped up- it's not the end of the world, even though it may seem like. Do you want to talk about? I'm sure it wasn't anything stupid.. nothing is stupid.

An honest answer- it's so hard to stop because we have come to depend upon it. It's a way to release everything you're feeling, and just letting it go. That's my reason, at least. There's better ways to release those feelings, though.

As to why he can't be more supportive- I don't know. I would assume that it's because he's scared and worried, and doesn't know what to tell you, or how to act around you.

♥ Jessica

cocopuff300 · 18-03-2009, 05:50 AM

Yeah thanks, Its just i've been free about three weeks and i thought i could do it longer but the whole break up thing is getting to me... I'm confused but i used to depend on my ex even though he wasn't supportive but i did need him now that hes not there and all i just don't know what to do. But i just don't get why he had to be scared of me he could have helped right?