Triggering (SI/Abuse) - self hatred.

[riley.]

i hate that 'normal' everyday things trigger me
i hate that i can't even safely read a newspaper
i hate that i can't watch TV without worrying whats next
i hate that my body was so neglected that now its falling apart and pains me every single day
i hate going into a general forum and being triggered by something that should be fun
i hate prejudging every thing i do for risk factors
i hate second guessing the world
i hate running
i hate hiding
i hate that there is no one that knows how to help me
i hate the things i know
i hate the things i've seen
i hate the flashbacks and the memories
i hate not being able to just leave it all behind
i hate that it controls me
i hate the grip it has on me
i hate what it has done to me
i hate the knowledge of how much trauma makes someone like me
i hate always looking over my shoulder
i hate never feeling safe
but most of all
i hate myself

[~Grace~]

'holds you' xx

[airwolf282]

Becci,

Please take care hun and stay safe. I know it seems hopeless right now but this will all pass sooner or later. I know what it's like being extremely sensitive and easily triggered but I'm sure you are a good person deep down so please don't hate yourself......easier said than done, I know because I struggle with that every day too.

Love Nathan xo

[-Asphyxia-]

I have a lot of self-hatred too. You are not alone in that, and you deserve kindness from yourself...Easier said than done, I know, but please be safe and take care of yourself. You're in my thoughts, and if you need to vent, PM me.

*hugs*

[chkymnky]

*hugs u tightly*