i can't handle this.

[TheHeroYouHate]

i hate my ridiculous anxiety.
can't sleep because im scared of throwing up.
why?
i feel ill constantly.
this is disgusting.

IF I'M NOT ALLOWED TO DO IT THEN NEITHER ARE YOU.



i hate how i couldn't possibly expect anyone to understand, yet want them to so badly.



how do i stop this!?
doesnt matter.


i think i should drop out of college bec ause its probably due to being nervous about my january exam, not because i dont know what im doing or think i wouldnt get a good grade, but because i'd have to sit in silence for an hour.
1 hour is making me ill and its weeks away.


im not sure there is a solution but if anyone has found one please enlighten me :/

[Misunderstood.]

Try making an appointment with your GP and asking for him / her to prescribe an anti-anxiety medication such as Propanolol. It can be taken as a fixed dose per day to eliminate the symptoms of anxiety when it's too severe to be dealt with any other way.
I would like to think your GP would prescribe you a course of it until the exam is over with as you describe more than a healthy level of nerves, in my opinion.
HTH.

[TheHeroYouHate]

I will ask him but he probably will say no - i was on fluoxetine and asked to change because it was making me feel ill but he said he was reluctant to prescribe something while i was in the process of mental health evaluation and stuff with the adult team, but now they've pretty much kicked me out but are still technically dealing with me so i doubt he would prescribe anything at the moment.
I'm seeing him on monday anyway because i think i've crushed my knuckle or something so yeah.
he'll just have a very jolly appointment with me.
last time i went to see him i had a tantrum :/
dreading it!

[Misunderstood.]

Ouch
Worth going to A&E to get your knuckle x-rayed straight away instead?
Just an idea for a way of avoiding seeing him at all if you don't think he would prescribe anything for the anxiety.

[Wonderland.]

Is it possible to see a different GP at your surgery?


x

[TheHeroYouHate]

The knuckle thing is an ongoing problem - i punch walls really often and now one of my knuckles feels completely horrible so im gonna see him about it but A&E couldnt help because its not a recent injury, plus i was meant to go back 2 days ago because i may have fractured my wrist but i dont wanna go back so i cant really go there at all.
My doctor is lovely, and he knows my history so seeing another GP probably wouldnt help, its the mental health services that are kinda messing it up because he cant really over-rule them.