Triggering (SI) - how could i be so stupid?

[OhSoAvalanche]

i cut.
i got blood on my recovery bracelet.
isnt that like sacrilegious or something?
i need to learn how to deal before my tattoos get ****ed up
theyre on my wrists
or before i go bald
cuz im pulling too much hair out
i cant deal
i cant even cry
i should be locked up =/

[Tuesday]

sweetie, try not to beat yourself up too much over it. we all slip up. try distracting yourself with something. keep talking on here if it helps. try to write out your feelings, try to find some sort of outlet that you can get some emotion out through besides hurting yourself. **safe squishes**

[OhSoAvalanche]

i needed it too much i have to cut theres no way around it. i give up trying not to. theres no point.

[Dregs]

We all slip up, please don't bang yourself up over a slip up. Maybe this will motivate you to not try to cut again? Next time you feel the urge to cut or pull out your hair, try ripping something up, paper, tissues, etc. It may sound stupid, but what I do sometimes to get myself to cry is too look at old childhood memories, like pictures, watching old favorite movies, read a favorite book, or just write about favorite memories. Sometimes crying is hard, try not to force it because it will make it harder. I hope you feel better.

[nikki2291]

Oh, hunni, I know it is really hard not to blame yourself for everything but we all slip-up. We are human and we are not perfect. I don't think you should be locked up, we are normal, we just have a destructive coping technique. But it is how we cope. You are not stupid either, is there anyone who you could talk to about how your feeling? A friend/family member you could call or see?

=) *Hugs*
I hope your okay.

~Nikki~

[OhSoAvalanche]

my best friends are convinced all i have is destructive behavior. even when im fine i still just sit there and rip stuff up. even though they've cut i dont think they truely get it. because for some reason. theyre able to stop. and i cant.