Worried now.

[TheHeroYouHate]

So earlier I went to the doctor, hoping he'd prescribe something for my anxiety but he was very reluctant due to the fact i'm technically under mental health care so they should deal with that kind of thing.
Well anyway, I was very upset/angry when i left the doctors and i did something pretty stupid
Basically, I've left 2 voicemails on my psychiatric consultants answerphone, one of them saying something along the lines of 'hi, its megan, just calling to say you've all completely f***ing screwed me over, and i cant get any help now oh i appreciate all youve done but its not enough, im going to kill myself now, so i probably wont be coming back.goodbye' and the second one saying 'on seconds thoughts, f*** killing myself, im gonna get really drunk!i can medicate myself if no one else will help'

What are they going to do!?
I'll probably get taken out of the service now.
I feel completely stupid but at the time it was completely justified.
I didn't even get drunk.
=/

[TheHeroYouHate]

I'm so scared they'll kick me out.
They've been trying to anyway, she's already said she can't do anything to help me due to my age so this is probably the excuse they need.
I don't want to ring them, I want them to ring me and either shout at me or ask if i'm alive, but i know they won't and.
I'm too demanding and afraid to be wrong.
I always do this to myself.

[TheHeroYouHate]

Thankyou :)
I think i'm just gonna try and sleep now because I have a huge toothache from worrying.
I never usually worry like this, i;m just so confused about whats going on.

[Misunderstood.]

I think whoever picks up the voice mail you left will just think you were worked up and didn't mean what you said because you were just frustrated. I think it'll just go straight over their heads and won't really be thought into much at all.
I hope you feel less worried now.
Sensible people don't take what people say seriously if it is said in anger because it is rarely meant.