Triggering (Suicide) - Mood swings?

I'm not sure what to do.

Basically, most days I'm fine. Just your average person, with average mood swings and stuff.

But then every so often, for a couple of days, or a week or even months at a time, I get really really sad and miserable. Like kill-yourself miserable. I hate everyone, don't smile, don't talk, just cry a lot and think about ways to kill myself. EDIT I won't actually kill myself because I know that it's just a 'phase' that I have every so often, and that I'll be better soon :S so there's no actual danger. But still. It's just not that great thinking that way.

And then suddenly, I'll be fine again. Is this normal?

My boyf said to me last night that I was in the driving seat in our relationship, that when I'm happy I make us happy and when I'm sad, I make us sad. And he finds it difficult to cope.

But I don't know what to do. I mean, is this just normal? Or is it more? I don't want to go to the doctors because, I mean, this is probably just nothing. But...? :S

Please help. Any advice/ understanding etc very gratefully received. Thanks x

[Target Dawn]

Mood swings are normal but having ones so drastic that you want to kill yourself aren't.
I can relate to how your feeling. I always used to think that this was normal for me though because I experienced it so much. However my psych told me otherwise and I was relieved to know that I wasn't defective and it was something that could be managed.

Wanting to kill yourself isn't nothing. You posted here about it so are obviously worried. Even if you think it's nothing, a trip to the doctors just to make sure wont do any harm. It's putting a strain on your relationship with your boyfriend and I'm sure that if you sort this out both you and him will be happier around eachother.

thanks miss ruby :)

[Horizon]

Are you seeing a professional? It definitely doesn't sound like nothing..in fact, it sounds like something you should definitely talk to a doctor about. Such extreme mood swings are dangerous.

take care.