I was sent to Fulborn (psych hosp near Cambridge) very late on Wednesday. I haven't eaten much and barely drank. The Voices don't want me to eat and drink. My parents are irritating me. I got restrained and forcibly injected yesterday for hurting myself. I give up.
Last edited by Steel Maiden : 30-10-2008 at 06:10 PM.
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PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Lolita, I'm in Friends Ward, which ward are you in? If I were allowed out, I would try and visit you. Now I'm not allowed to eat or drink (Voices' commands) and yesterday's injection is still in my memories, replaying, even though by now I am used to being forcibly injected. I just want the schiz to f*ck off and to let me carry on with my uni course. All I do here is sleep and occasionally read a few pages. I hate myself.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
The Darwin Centre. It's not on the main Fulbourn site (it's called the Ida Darwin site) but it's not far from it, I pass it every time I walk to Tesco.
I understand it's hard but try to keep yourself safe. I can't imagine what it's like to be forcibly injected, it almost happened to me once and I was scared shitless.
Lolita, I'm in Friends Ward, which ward are you in? If I were allowed out, I would try and visit you. Now I'm not allowed to eat or drink (Voices' commands) and yesterday's injection is still in my memories, replaying, even though by now I am used to being forcibly injected. I just want the schiz to f*ck off and to let me carry on with my uni course. All I do here is sleep and occasionally read a few pages. I hate myself.
For what it's worth, you can still carry on with university; my Dad has the same condition as you and many aeons ago when he went to university he was in hospital a couple of times and in the end his degree took him five years, but he got there in the end and came out with a masters honours.
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im sorry your in hospital hunny.
i hope things start to look up soon.
carry on and do your uni work hunny it may help you a little.
keep fighting.
xx
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Sorry to hear your in hopsital. Like the Le almightykitten said it is still possible to complete your course. My three year degre a lso took five years and i completed it as an inpatient. Have you contacted the disability co ordinator from cambridge? They might be able to help you out. You may not agree but my philosphy in regards to uni is that if you want someithing such as a degree nothing will stand in your way including mental illness.
i am sorry to hear you are in hospital. thinking about you and hoping you will get better soon. please to hesitate to pm me anytime. x
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and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
Don't blame yourself for this, Steel. There will be a way for you to carry on with your degree, try speaking to the disabilities co-ordinator as lostandalone3 said.
*hugs* please try to eat and drink.
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
Ive been forcibly injected so many times. i know what it feels like.
as was said before, you should really try to eat or drink something ( i know im a complete hypocrite)
i know its hard with the voices, i have schitzophrenia and its hard to not listen to them, but you must try, dont let them control your life.
are you on any medication?
*hugs*
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I know it's hard but you really need to not listen to the voices and still eat and drink. What are you scared of happening if you don't take notice of them?
Sorry you had such a hard time yesterday. I've never been forcibly injected but I have been restrained several times before and it's horrible.
Thinking of you lots *hugs*
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*Hugs* Im very sory to hear that your in hospital and that your having a difficult time. I really hope that youi get the help you need in hospital and that you feel better soon. Please try to eat and drink. If you ever want to talk your very welcome to get in touch anytime.
I have been on the adolescent ward at Fulbourn but Im imaginging your on the adult hospital site.
Im sorry things are hard right now, please take care xx
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I know Friends ward- they were our neighbours when I was in! ( I was in the one just a bit along from it) and we did walking group together. My mate Zoe may be in there- she was under section and being transferred there, so if there is a person called Zoe, say Becky/ Rebecca says hi! I hope it isnt too awful and your stay isnt too long. I am thinking of you lots.
