too afraid

[midget]

im sooo afraid of losing my the closest person in my life,my much loved boyfriend! even thought we have book a holiday,going campin,planning on buying a camper!

it still seems like its not enough?!!
when he see's his friends i am so jealous and start resenting myself!
i totally understand he needs time to see his friends but it still bugs me!
bad times this evening,was my fault again! as always!

fear of being abandoned again! is just so hard to deal with at the moment!
i have found someone who loves me,cares for me and yet i push this person away by being far too needy,crying cos thats the only way i can stop been sick!

i need some sort of cure a cure that makes me feel that nothing will damage our relationship!
the only thing that will damage it,is me!

time to act and stop being a d*ck i think!

[guiltyinnocence]

hey,
have you talked to ur bf about how u feel? ur fears of abandonment etc? what makes u think hes going to abandone u?
pm me anytime if u wanna talk
take care
xxxx

[Arianwen]

It's always really difficult when there is someone in our lives that's close like that. Keep focusing on the fact that he loves you no matter what, because he can see the real, beautiful you and cling to that.

*hug*

[midget]

hey thanks for your replies!
i have spoken to him and he says that he will always be here for me,but there is still that fear in the back of mind,i have been traumatized from my previous relationship,i know i should not bring my past to my previous relationship! it will take a lot of hard work but i'm willing to do it! so we can be happy! was a really bad night last night, but a new day a new start im thinking and hoping.

thank you very much for your advise xx