I'm worried now...

[[pretty on the inside]]

When I went to the hospital I discussed a few things with the doctor in there that I don't think I should have done. I told him that I feel like I'm being watched, like my actions are recorded on cctv and it's all fed back to my parents. I can't give the hospital my next of kin because I'm worried they will phone them about it and tell them I am struggling. I feel like the TV/radio/etc is transmitting what I'm doing to my parents or someone who will tell my parents. Maybe it's just my guilty conscience, I don't know. But the doctor seemed worried about all this and kept asking me questions in my assessment that worried me, like he wanted to diagnose me with something. I'm sure they are watching me though, because I know that they talk about me and discuss me behind my back. I know that they know about everything I'm doing, and they're talking about how to deal with me.

The support persn at the uni said I need to give them a call or she'll get the police to check on me =[ this is ****ing ridiculous, I don't need to be checked on, they're violoating my privacy and treating me like I'm crazy when I'm basically fine =\

I think this has turned into a bit of a rant but **** the health service I am ****ing fine and I don't ned the police to come and check on me and confiscate my knife!! ARRRGH wankers. Rant over.

[Aidee]

I think it's good that you've discussed this with your doctor because it sounds like you have some irrational paranoia going on. Your support person obviously doesn't think you are ok, and she is concerned about you and thats why she wants you to check in.

[Wonderland.]

Sweetie as much as you think you're okay it doesnt sound as if your doing to great..
It don't think its normal to be thinking those things...please let them help you so they can give you the support you deserve.
Why don't you want your family to know?

Take care.
Amy x

[Misunderstood.]

I'm glad you told the doctor what you did, as they'll be able to help you, even if it doesn't feel like help at the minute!
You don't sound well hon, so it's good that the doctor knows how things really are.
{hugs}

Catherine xxxx