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Grief
I posted not so long ago asking for advice on how to support someone who's just been given bad news, anyway, I suppose i'll give you people the story, i think i need to to get things straight for myself so bear with me.
She had been a little ill on and off for quite a while, stomach upsets, tiredness etc, we were all concerned but not overly so, anyway, while we were away on holiday she was diagnosed with cancer. Apparently it had progressed gradually from her stomach, into her bloodstream and then to everywhere else. Treatment was hopeless and we were all dumbfounded and grief stricken already.
She died on Thursday, the doctors said she might make christmas and she didn't even make 5 weeks. It came like a wreaking ball, I can't really say i'd even come to terms with the fact she was ill, let alone...
She was a beautiful person, kind, generous, she never swore, she was always positive. I think the best way to describe the way she made people feel was been wrapped in a warm blanket when she was near.
I don't think it'd had sank in until today when I was asked to be a coffin bearer and I instantly thought "will I be strong enough?" then it clicked what I would be carrying and I just fell to pieces.
Why are good people taken from us to soon? When the refuse of humanity live into old age??? What does her husband do now? How can he recover just after their ruby wedding? and what about the 3 year old grandson, how are we supposed to tell him where grandma has gone???
I know people will say that 60 years is a long life, but I know people who have wasted the next 20 years of their lives just waiting to die. Where is the justice???
The world is a colder place without her now
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