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I'm going mad
That's just it...I'm going mad! It started off with slight stress but it's now taking over my life. I was on holiday a few weeks ago and I was supposed to relax and enjoy myself but I was thinking of stressful things even then. I just can't switch off from it! It's affecting my relationship with others too - I start getting really snappy at them all the time and even someone wrote to me: "I've never seen you smiling before so now that your exams are over, smile!" That just got me thinking: "am I really that bad that they've never seen me smile?"
I can't be "normal" at all. I have very strange things that I do (that no one else knows about) like I can't look at clocks without them getting me furstrated. Whenever I look at the clock specifically to know the time, I'm ok. It's just when I don't need to know the time that they drive me insane because I can't stop staring at the second hand going around/watching the digits changing on a digital clock. Also, the "tick tock" sound from a clock always sounds ultra loud and irritates me. The clocks are making me so agitated that I've removed them from sight in my room - I've turned them backwards so that I have to turn them around if I want to know the time.
Whenever I get angry, I feel like my head is gonna blow up so I have a sudden urge to cut. It's really hard to stop myself from cutting when I'm triggered, I'm constantly stressed/anxious/sad and it's affecting my life.
I need help. So I'm going to the GP. My problem is: I won't be able to reach a psych because they're ages away from where I live and I haven't passed my driving test yet. Does anyone reckon that my GP would perscribe some meds, like fluoxetine for the time being, until I pass my test so I can drive to the psychs'?
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