Well...yeah. After 5 years, I think it is time for me to move on.
I found RYL at a point where I was...feeling totally alone in SI...lost...very ill and very out of control. It's a little scary to me now remembering just how 'sick' and dangerous i was. Countless ER trips, staples, stitches, admissions to ICU for OD's/attemtps, shooting myself ffs, the nasty break to my shoulder....and on and on...
It was hell. I'm sometimes surprised now i made it out.
Much of the reason I did was the support of the wonderful ppl I found here. Who told me I wasn't a 'freak' or alone. Who were always willing to listen and support however they could even when they were in hell themselves.
It makes me wish I could stay and offer support...but it feels best/safest for me not to.
I've made some great friends here! Thank you all. You've helped me get to this day.
I'm still 'ill', I will always be. But, I no longer see harming as an option or a solution...it just isn't. It has left me with horrible scars for a lifetime.
I will probably stay a bit in General Chat and News/Debates...I think...? Perhaps I should make a 'clean' break tho? I don't know that yet....
But, I need something more recovery-based; less SI oriented.
I know now how to ask for help, and insist for it if i have to!, to keep away from resorting to harm. I don't want SI in my life anymore....in my hubby's life...in our daughter's life...
Best of all? I don't NEED it either.
I will miss RYL. It has really been a huge part of my life for years now...
Most have my ctc info and I look forward to keeping in touch. Thank you, everyone who has always been so good to me. You helped me to save myself many, many times. I will miss you.
I hope you will all be able to say, 'no more' soon. To have your life back; the life you deserve!
I am really going to miss seeing you around but at the same time I am really happy for you. It has been really amazing to watch how much you have grown lately, you are a real fighter and inspiration. All the best.
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I am so happy and proud for you Romp. RYL will not be the same without you but it sounds like you are making the right decision. Please do pm/email/fb and let us know how you are doing. I will miss you xxx
Hiya, just to wish you all the luck in the world and the strength to keep fighting, and that good memories will over-shadow bad ones, sending you many hugs, Hannah
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
Romp! (:( That's both a happy and a sad face. I'm really glad that you have come so far. You are doing so well and it's fantastic. At the same time, you've been here as long as i can remember and it'll seem strange without you. I'll miss you but I wish you all the best. You're welcome back any time and we're always here for you.
OMG! *does happy dance* i'm so proud of you honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the best news that i've had in a long time. *snuggles and licks* You are a wonderful person and you CAN dot his.
I'm so proud of you!
Love ALWAYS
your non nakey sky blue jelly bean!
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
3 half years ago I came to this thread and you were there with a very very warm welcome and made me stay, the rest is history.
I have always admired you, your fight, you determination and your drive. YAY you have finally found the answer that we are all searching for.
That is comes a time where we have to push ourselves that one stage further and decide that harming isnt the way forward. Finding other way of coping is that way to go.
I am soooooo PROUD of you and you have done this all yourself. YAY
I will always be your forever friend
Jadey Pie xxx
Oh Romp. I'm so happy you feel ready to move on, but I'm going to miss having you around *hugs*
Good luck in whatever you choose to do and take good care of yourself.
Arwen xxx
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