ive got a bottle of dextromethorphan. ive read up on it and judging by the amount in the bottle when i take the whole thing i'll be pretty out of it. also a bottle of aspirin and my knives.
done something tonight thats not good. i wont say what, but its a serious offense in my religion and im so messed up.
also found out tonight that one of my best friends is suicidal and self injures.
im feeling so suicidal right now. i dont know how ill continue with life..........
Last edited by scarred4life532 : 19-07-2008 at 06:38 AM.
Honey. If your're still there, I want you to call somebody, wake someone up. Dont' do anything else to yourself. Call a friend or a family member. If you can, alright? Everything is gunna be just fine, you'll see. I want you to tell someone what you just did, and get yourself to a hospital or a doctor. Alright? You're gunna be just fine, just so long as you get yourself some help real quick, ok? Things are gunna work out, love. Alright? Just trust me on this, and get yourself some good help.
If it's something bad you've done, Pray. He'll listen. That's what I'm doing right now for you, anyway.
Are you sure that is really what you want to do honey? I dont' know a lot about medications, but I'm pretty sure that OD is a serious thing to do. I would advise you to get proffessional help. What makes you say that you can't tell anyone? I'm sure someone is bound to listen and help you. ^^b
It sounds like you've an awful lot going on at once, and this has brought you close to the edge. It's important you get some help, and, as 'LlyC says, to hospital. You need to be checked medically, and if possible to get some emotional support arranged to help you cope with all that you're facing more safely.
just that i happen to know that what ive taken isn't life threatening. I'll just get a really bad trip from it.
I would be so screwed if anyone found out.
When they see the state you're in, they'll know anyway, surely?
Even a bad trip, as you call it, isn't a healthy thing, and may effect you in ways you can't anticipate.
I'm hoping the worst of it will be over by morning. besides, im a good liar. i'll just tell my parents that it was because of the party and how late i was up.
Are you positive honey? I'm overcautions, so I apologize, but I wouldn't take that risk. I don't mean to sound critical or anything, but you have been through a lot and you need to find someone you can confide in, talk everything over with and get it all out so it doesn't trap inside so things like this don't happen again. I'm not leaving till i'm sure you're alright. Ok?
Good Job. I'm proud of you! Things will look up. I promise. It always gets its darkest before it can get bright again...At least I think that's how the quote goes. Anyway. I'm so proud of you, honey. You're doing a great job right now. Keep me updated, alright?
--huggles--
Alrite. PM me or something the second you wake up please and thank you? I would like to keep updated. Get some rest, hun. You've had a rough time. You deserve it.
All I ask is you honestly truly consider it, alright?
