Triggering (SI/Suicide) - I am so tired of this

amanda26 · 17-07-2008, 12:05 AM

I have been depressed this time for about a week now... but who knows how much longer it will last. I have been really considering ending it all because i can't it any longer. I screwed up last night and started scratching again... i have tried to email people for help/support but got no response... i tried the chat room here without much luck... and i posted a journal entry here (i have a really hard time talking in person and on the phone). i am tired of people telling me things like "you have so much to live for... i love you... you are special... you should just go to the hospital" ugh...

ScarletTears · 17-07-2008, 02:29 AM

I know how you feel about not being able to find anyone to talk to. I always feel so lonely. The only reason I have for not ending it is that it's so final -- maybe you could use that too? Or what other people have told me, "Just don't do it." I don't know how that's supposed to work, but I'm still here, so apparently it has, you could try that one.
PM me if you owant to talk. I have no life, so I'm always here.

Beth xx

Stellata · 17-07-2008, 08:31 AM

What kind of help and support are you hoping for? What would really help you, do you think?

Cazki · 17-07-2008, 04:14 PM

Hey *Hugs you* Im sorry you have been feeling so low. Do you have any idea of what it is thats causing you to feel like this? You said that you had emailed several people but that you didnt get a reply, you could get in touch with the supporters here at ryl http://www.recoveryourlife.com/liveh...hp?LANGUAGE=en or you could contact the Samaritans if your in the uk?? I do understand you being fed up with everything iv been there before and i know what its like to feel that its better ending it but it would be better because what your going through now is temporary it wont last forever. Please dont end your life if you ended your life it would effect alot of other people around you that care about you. Is there anyone close to you who you could confide in? Please keep talking to us, we are all here for you.

Take care best wishes Ian

Porcelain Child · 18-07-2008, 04:49 PM

Oh those sound so familiar...

Do you have any professional help... perhaps a counsellor....

Maybe you could go and see your GP and tell them how you are feeling...

*squishes*

amanda26 · 18-07-2008, 06:52 PM

I can't see a doc or a therapist since i dont have any insurance... but i did tell my bf last night that i have been feeling suicidal and have a plan... he told me that as much as it killed him to say it that he hopes i find peace if i decide to go through with it...