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Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - *Cry* Kill me? [ED]
I don't know anymore.
I hurt so much.
I sleep ALL the time.
I get fed up of sleeping but i can't help it.
I can't stop think about my sexual abuse.
I cut EVERY day.
My arms are a mess.
But i love them being like that.
I can't see the day when i start to smile again.
I want to destroy my ED recovery.
I want to purge.
I have put TOO much weight on.
Tbh i want to die.
My boyfriend is sat RIGHT near me.
But i can't talk to him.
I live my life in fear of EVERYTHING.
I can't talk to anyone.
I'm NOT like that.
So don't suggest it.
I prefer to talk through the PC.
Im so tired.
I hate my life, myself, my head.
I really live my life in fear.
Fear of love, what will happen to me and other i love.
Fear of myself, my voices, my visions.
They TOUCH me.
I don't want them to.
I am sick of being sexually used.
Looked at though im a sexual piece of meat.
I give up..
Last edited by Snow White. : 18-07-2008 at 09:49 AM.
Reason: Removed connotations of a "goodbye"
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