i really want a bottle of vodka and some wizz right now
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
Dunno what wizz is. Is vodka a solution or a hiding place?
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
my boyfriend dumped me, im pregnant, im failing all my exams..
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
Admittedly, i usually stay out of the substance forum because of my past, however, having read about your pregnancy, i can't help but feel the need to reply. I am currently half asleep (Thanks to my medication) so if i ramble on i apologise.
At the mere age of 14, i became addicted to drugs. Weed, hash, cocaine, i tried heroin once.
I was pregnant.
I lost my daughter at 24 weeks gestation, she was born stillborn.
Every single minute of my life, i regret my actions. It will live with me until the day i die. I miss her sincerely, but at the time, i understand i was not in the right state of mind.
15 is young. That doesn't necessarily mean you won't be a good mother. There is no such word as "can't".
Of course, no one but you can make the decision to keep this baby. But don't let the usual stereotypical teenage mother "portrayle" scare you. I have many friends who had children during there teens. Do they regret it? No. Of course, they wished they would have waited, but i believe everything happens for a reason.
They have successful lives, and having worked in and out of nurserys all my life, i can tell you honestly, these girls have the most amazing well behaved children i have ever come across.
It's down to the individual person. Exams can be retaken. The same child can not be re-concieved.
I had a mild problem with alcohol. I found my confidence in alcohol and drugs just like you. In the end, i fought so hard to come out of my shell without the needs to alcohol and drugs. And one day, you will too. It's hard. Damn it's hard. But you're young. That doesn't mean you're immature, or niave, it simply means you have lots to learn, as do i, and i'm a "to be" 22 year old.
If you need to talk through your current situation, i am open to PM's.
Hold on tight, the ride will be bumpy, but when it's over, you'll feel so much better.
Take care of yourself.
xxx
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
one of my great friends had her first child when she was 15. she dropped out of school, and later went to tafe(technical college) to do her HSC(yr12) equivalent, which she aced. she now goes to uni.
kids aren't the end of your life. but if you truely believe your not ready for this, talk to your doctor.
don't try to cause a miscarriage by drinking and taking drugs. it can damage you as well as the child and its not guaranteed to work.
you don't need the alchohol or drugs. i know you want them, but they can steal your life away, more so than a kid would.
exams can be sat at a later date, or even re-sat, boys will come and go until you meet the right person for you. even children, although not this one if you decide not to have it, can be had at a later date. but there is no way to regain the time spent so off your face that you weren't sure what was happening. and it is quite hard to regain self esteem and self respect that may be lost in those periods of no self control.
you can be strong, and you don't need to do these things. ask for some help from someone in your life, a teacher, a parent, a friend, or go see your doctor or make an appointment with a counsellor. there is no shame or weakness in asking for help or advice. there is strength in realising you need help and in asking for it. some poeple may react badly, but that is to do with their own issues, not with you.
take things one day at a time and know we are here for you.
take care
Annie
Oh my god. Alee! I am so sorry I haven't been around, and haven't spoken in a while. Please, please don't do anything silly, and please speak to someone who can help. Loads of love and cuddles xxxxxxxxxxxx
and there she goes with her head in the clouds again, ignoring the drama and chasing her dreams. because to her, reality is a stranger.
