Ok, so here's the long and short of my story (hopefully more short than anything). I suppose I would be called a recovering addict. I was addicted to pills for what felt like the longest time. It's been probably 10 months since I gave it up. I realized what I was becoming and hated myself. I got to go through the hell of withdraws and all the unpleasant pain my body visited on me hoping I would go back to the pills. However, I made it. Recently the temptation has been spiking. Life has become a lot to handle, but I'm making it. I have had several people (including random drug dealers) offer me the pills that part of me misses so much. (what I miss is the feeling of being absolutely pain free...not the hell that went with it). This weekend, my body threw a tantrum. I was in constant pain. I had a migraine that was miserable, and I just had random aches, pain and lethargy. Everything was telling me to go back to the pills. Luckily my boyfriend realized what I was going through and convinced me to go out and do something nice for myself instead of hiding in a dark room torturing myself all day.
I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced this. Sort of a quasi-withdraw feeling when the temptation arises again? I guess I'm just in need of some support from people who know how it is.
Thanks.
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