Im totally on edge right now, have been for a while, and its increasing. Im very paranoid, and I couldnt sleep till past 5am last night because of the anxeity and stress.
I am going to phone the CMHT and speak to the psych tomorrow I think cos I know she isnt there on a monday, but does anyone know what they or I can do,, this is ripping me apart.
Also, pretty much the whole of today Ive been in a goldfish bowl,, it feels like dissociating, but I dont actually know fully what it is,, nobody has ever explained and I dont really understand it.
thanks
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
Oh sweetheart I wish I had the words to make you feel better
But I am ALWAYS ALWAYS here for you, whenever for whatever.
I love you very very much sweetheart, never forget that.
Please take gentle care of yourself hun, you're so precious, these bad times will pass, I promise
*BIG HUGGLES*
xxxxxxxxxxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
She (psych) doesnt want to change the meds, but I will ask her again, because I think it might help.
I will try to get an early night, I took my meds last night at 2ish, but I wasnt sleepy till 5, so I think they were a bit inneffective cos I wasnt calmed down with them, and I know they work with you.
I have talked a bit today to my dad, he doesnt know how bad things were last night, but he knows how I am feeling now, I think. The trouble is with one thing, I dont think its imagined, I did talk to someone, and they agreed with me,, which actually helped in that I didnt feel so crazy.
My body is stiff and rigid from the fear :/ my muscles ache a lot, it must be worry, but its actually physically hurting now.
I talked to the duty worker, and she said that the minutes of the meeting say a lady on the team will see me, but shes away right now, and will probably contact me when shes back.
*breathes* got to keep telling myself this will be okay
*lovelove* xx
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
they said later this week. never said a day, and I didnt ask :/ silly me. they said they ASSUME she will ring me when she is back, so I hope it will be this week, might be next week, but Im not gonna wait,, so I will call on friday if I have heard nothing.
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
