Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - Sick of memories

[cutupangel09]

I'm so tired of these memories. It has been almost 2 years probably. (sexually,verbally, emotionally abused by a guy from '05-'06) but anyways. A few days ago I had a terribly vivid dream. It felt so real. I woke up crying. I would barely talk to my new boyfriend. It took me forever to tell him what was wrong. (Yeah, he knows and is supportive) I just feel stupid for it still bothering me. I wish I could just let it go and move on with my life. I've stopped cutting, began anorexia recovery, but I can't seem to shake these vivid memories.

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the hurting everytime i left his house, cutting afterwards, the fish above his bed, the bow stabalizer he used before, just ughh everything, the you do this or he makes me life hell fact.

I'm sorry I just needed to vent. It just hurt me.

[Stellata]

You've been traumatised, it takes time to heal.