Triggering (SI) - I am about to explode!!!!!!

little_secrets · 15-06-2007, 04:10 PM

I haven't cut in almost 2 weeks...... have fought the urges and found things to do to take my mind off of it. But the emotions have built up now I feel like a volcano about to erupt. I am at work and can't think of any way to release the anxiety

I need some time alone. Some time to clear my head and to take a deep breath, but I am always around people- at work, home- everywhere I go. I can barely stand to go to the store anymore because of all the people there. My husband doesn't want to leave me alone- he's afraid I'll hurt myself and I usually have my daughter with me. I'm anxious and tired and want to just be left alone.

Thanks to anyone who takes time to read this...... I just really needed the opportunity to rant for a minute.

Stellata · 15-06-2007, 04:14 PM

It sounds like you need to do something with those emotions, but something safe.
How about putting on some loud music and dancing? Maybe you and your daughter could have a dance session together?!

Fakesmile · 16-06-2007, 04:56 AM

I just saw this and just wanted to say I hope you found something to help you release your emotions. I know people say this alot, but if you haven't maybe you could try writing down your emotions. I know it works for me. Good luck.

little_secrets · 17-06-2007, 01:29 AM

Thank you both for your advice.....

I did spend the day today at a park with trails that gave me some time to hike and picnic with my family. I didn't exactly get alone time, but I did get to be out in the sun and active, which helped.

As for writing down my emotions, I do keep a journal and find that it is helpful. Recently I haven't been able to write so much because my husband is around a lot and, even though he supports my writing, he always wants to know what I am writing about and sometimes I can't explain everything to him in a way that he understands and more often I don't want to have to explain anything.

I'm still being hit hard with urges to SH, but I did get my mind off of them for the day. That is better than thinking about it all day like I have been.

Thank you again

Margo · 18-06-2007, 02:27 PM

Aaaw Amber! *hugs*

I dont cut from anxiety but i know what its like to have anxiety and how it can really **** up your day. I know the feeling of not wanting to go to the supermarket or anywhere infact where theres load of people.

Are you on medication? Do you or would you consider taking something for the anxiety? Ive been on alot of things and its taken a while but i have the right things now that help me when i need them. They could just give you enough to get by until you get to the root cause of the anxiety and start to get it dealt with properly.

Hang in there! YOu are doing great!!

Love and hugs
Matthew xxx