Hydrocodone.

Day Tripper · 21-06-2007, 07:31 AM

I feel really weird and kind of uncomfortable posting in here and asking for assistance. I've admitted before that I do have a problem, on and off, with hydrocodone, but posting in here seems to only admit that I do not have it under control on my own and I need assistance. So please be kind.

I know that staying away from them is the best way to refrain from taking them but it's hard to do when my own father is trying to shove them down my throat because I'm calmer and less of a bitch when I am taking them. I don't take them on a regular basis anymore, but it's got to where I am unable to sleep, or even get comfortable in bed, without taking them.

I've always felt as though I had control over them. I'd take them then I'd stop. I would go without taking them for months, close to a year, at a time. Tonight I knew I wouldn't make it through without doing something harmful without them. It's not like they're not harmful themselves, though.

I don't know what to do to curb feeling the need for them. Tonight my dad started screaming at me and has hid them. I'd been stealing them from him. But the yelling and whatnot is the main reason I feel I need them. They help make me sleep.

But the physical and mental effects aren't worth it. For days after taking them I normally feel nauseous and dehydrated. I don't know if it's withdraws or if it is from taking the pills. I also end up feeling a lot more depressed than usual and have 1-3 hour crying sessions where I can't stop, usually lasting longer when I am feeling the effects from taking them. My friends are getting fed up with it.

I guess I am just looking for some ideas that won't cost much money. Maybe some horror stories to make me think twice before trying to find some.

At the moment I'm just looking for anything. I don't want to go back to where I've been before with them. It was hell for me for two months when I wasn't able to get a hold of them.

qwerty_joshy · 21-06-2007, 07:44 AM

Maybe try and see your doctor, see if he has any advice for you? He'll be able to put you on somethign to make you happy but not all the downsides. You don't even need to mention the other drugs to him, and if you're over 16 (I think it's the same in America) then your Dad doesn't have to know you've been.

Good luck

Joshy
xxx

Day Tripper · 21-06-2007, 07:48 AM

I might go see my doctor, well, get a new doctor, if I manage to start work soon. I have no insurance so the bill will be stupidly outrageous but I'm sure it will be worth it.

My old doctor is stupid and was writing prescriptions for 100 hydrocodone at a time for my dad. I'm really against him and will never, ever see him again. He doesn't care about his patients. My dad getting such large prescriptions made it so easy for me to get the pills for free during high school, which is when I got into them really badly and was first introduced to them, so I hold my doctor partially responsible for his lack of being responsible.

Thanks for the reply. :)

Guest Visitor · 22-06-2007, 12:01 PM

Well.. I used to have a slight problem with them whilst I had access. One night I took too many because I thought I had a tolerance built up, and...

The following content has been hidden - Reason : potential suicide/si trigger

I didn't even remember it.

Just slowly taper yourself off them, Shannerz, and the upsetting-ness won't be that bad hopefully. Then, move out. You really need to move out. I know the financial situation is hellish right now, but as soon as possible I think it would be best. I think you know this already, anyway.

I do keep you in my thoughts, and I feel that things will improve for you. Not that I'm psychic - it's just that I've never known you to be a bad person, and if your life continued this way it would be really ****ed up.

Do you react better to acetiminophen (tylenol) or ibuprofin (motrin)? They're less dangerous, and not illegal to take without prescription (yay!), and could help with your headaches once you stop taking the hydro. And I'm pretty sure I butchered those spellings, but it's almost six in the morning and I really don't care.. I need to sleep. When you stop taking them completely (I'm just assuming you're going to... there could be an "if" in there also), make sure you're around anyone, even online in chat or something. Bad reactions and yeah. I'm pretty sure you know what I'm talking about.

You can beat this. Do you still have my cell number? Heh, do you still have a cell? If not, and if yes, PM me - I'm more likely available to talk via texting than RYL. Always away, and yeah. I'm still here for you. There's even an email address you can use that will be sent to my phone as a text message, if you want it.

Sorry for the dis-jointed-ness of all this.. I'll try to reply more coherently later today, but like I said - it's almost six in the morning. This is the absolute last thing I'm doing before going to sleep. And, well, yeah. I'm kinda out of it.

If you need a different kind of horror story, go read the thread about my benzo experience. Different pill, but y'know... they both affect you in similar ways. Just different parts of the nervous system (I think).

And now I'm off. Good night. I love you. Take care.

Day Tripper · 23-06-2007, 09:00 AM

I think I still have your cell number, Nessa, but I can't text. :( The 2, 5, 8, and 0 on my phone don't work an won't until I get a new phone.

I haven't taken them for a few days and I don't like it.

Taking them usually ends with me curled up in a ball crying my eyes out and making stupid phone calls to people while in tears. I always think it will make me feel better when I'm down but it usually just intensifies the depressed feelings and I end up worse.

And right now I'm reeeeeeeeeally wanting them and this sucks ass.