Triggering (SI) - I will be going...Nowhere fast

[hypocrisy]

Well,like the title says that's how I feel. I still don't know how to drive, I still haven't found any any graduate school I really want to go to because I've barely looked; I'm scared to do anything because I'm scared that I'll fail like my mother says, but on the other hand, I can't stay where I am because I HATE my mom. So basically, I'm just plugging along like a little old woman with osteoporosis. I'm so tired, I just want to sleep...but, my tiredness might not be due to depression but to the fact that I have mutliple wound on my body. Only one is even remotely deep or wide, but for me pain is my goal for the most part, not blood nor depth (so my endorphins are probably non-existent).I woke up this morning feeling like I had run a marathon and done sit-ups all night.

[Fakesmile]

I just wanted to say I understand how hard it can be to get motivated to do things when you're depressed or scared. I'm sure many people on here understand that. Anyway, I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you, but hang in there.

[Margo]

Sade make a list. You are more than capable of doing all of this. Just do a little when you can. But get that list written. List numbers and reference sources for colleges etc. Then when you get some energy perhaps research one of them or make a call and tick it off the list.

Take care

*hugs*


Matthew xxx

[chocostashchick]

Your mom is wrong. Dont let her win - you wont fail unless you start to believe her. Lists are a good idea like Matthew said. Or you could just apply to some places and see what happens and afterwards decide where you would like to go. I know that some schools let you take courses unmatriculated, so you could always find a local school and take a class or two in your field while you figure out where you want to apply. By the way driving is overrated and insurance and gas are too expensive and in the end with public transport and the like you may be saving $, and the environment! go you!
but good luck and i hope you feel better. dont let your mom get you down - if that is the kind of thing she says to you she cant be a very happy person but she is certainly dealing with it in a twisted way and her words are better off ignored.

by the what WHAT is on your avatar? is that a person leaning back??

[Rainbow-Angel]

Destiny is 50/50: what falls into place, and what you put into place.

Look inside yourself and you will find all the answers, and the solutions you need. Take time to heal, and take time to see the world you want. Then recreate it with a depth that only you know.