Triggering (SI/ED) - want to scream! *also may trigger OD*

bob--says--hi · 14-04-2008, 03:38 AM

about a month ago i got really close with this guy and i mean really close he was like my best friend he understood me totally and it was like so perfect the only problem was he had a girlfriend we started kissing and ended up having sex a few days after that everyone found out at college and his girlfriend just flipped shes phycho anyway but me and sam (the guy) had a massive falling out and he wont speak to me at all and doesnt ever want to ever again unless he has to.

ever since that happened ive felt so alone and so depressed worse than i have ever felt yeah i may not of OD since thats happened and i use to quite often but i feel more depressed than ever. he was the only one who understood my ED and SH and now hes gone its like all i want to do is scream because i fucked up the best thing ever and since then everythings gone downhill i just want his help again he helped me soo much and all i want to do is ring him and tell him everything and get his help but that wont ever happen i just feel like i really need him in my life its so important to me that he is in my life as he made me feel like i was worth something

hes now gone and i feel like part of me went with him its really strange it makes me want to scream and cut and b/p and i hate it all i want is him back in my life but that wont ever happen will it!

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i dont know whats going on with me i just feel the need to have him back. i wasnt even in love with him it was just lust and i dont understand why i need him back so much but i do i really do!

Fading Heart · 14-04-2008, 07:56 PM

Always here for you hun
Glad you haven't OD because you are a really nice person and a supportive person!
stay strong hun, you're not alone :) you have us all!!
xxx

Ash* · 15-04-2008, 12:14 AM

So,don't take this the wrong way or whatever,but you seem to get attached to people pretty quick, or maybe, more have really strong feelings for people really quickly?
There's always a girl or guy problem going on.

To be fair,his girlfriend flipped at you,I'd flip at you,I'd probably do more then flip at you. The guy's probably giving you space because his girlfriend's giving him shit,what do you want him to do?

He's not worth hurting yourself over.
The situation's not worth hurting yourself over. He made a mistake,so did you. You're young,you're going to make more (sorry to tell you),there's nothing much you can do but deal with your actions. Hurting yourself's not going to make it go away,it's not going to make it better and it's not going to stop it from happening again.

You seem pretty low on self respect. Don't surround yourself with people who treat you like crap,the guy had a girlfriend,yet still got involved with you? Low.