Everything is just getting too much, I honestly feel like chucking myself off the nearest building, theres that little hope for me. It wouldn't be so bad anyway, I think it'd be a relief just to sink away into death. I don't know what's stopping me, its almost as if I'm waiting for something but I don't know what and I don't think its worth waiting for.
I feel totally empty, as though there really isn't anything there. I'm just existing, and barely even that. I don't know what I want, I don't know what I need. I just don't know. I'm floating about from place to place, probably looking for something that'll slice through all this fog in my brain and let me think straight.
I don't feel real, I'm terrified, but I'm not, and I'm up here on my own, doing nothing and I could be doing work but I don't have the motivation, I could go downstairs but I don't want to see anyone. I could play piano but I don't want to do that either.
I just want to cut, and bleed, and feel pain to focus my concentration on something. I don't know. I'll just shut up and go away, theres no point in this
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
Do want to talk about what some of the causes of these feelings are? am so sorry u feel so low but have to try and hold on coz one day you'll always be thankful you did. i care. Please keep postin xxxxxxxxx
Wish i could tie you up in my shoes....make you feel unpretty too...
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see......
You're still here in my heart.
Hello there im so sorry to hear that your feeling really low. Please dont end your life though. Could you talk to us about what it is thats making you feel like this? Please keep fighting through this please dont give up you can get through this. I know what your going through isnt easy but it doesnt mean you can get through this. Im terribly sorry for the pain your going through. Please think about things before you think about ending your life. Please think of all the different ways this would effect all the people that care about you.
If anything happened to you everyone would be really devastated and it may lead to them blaming themselves and feeling really guilty. They would have to live with alot of pain for the rest of there life. You dont deserve this. But suicide really isnt the answer. If anything happened to you alot of people would be so upset. We are all here for you and we all care about you so much. We will do our very best to support you for as long as you need it. Do you have any support at all?
Please try to keep yourself distracted as much as you possibly can. Things that you might want to have a think about trying are as follows, listening to music, doing jobs to keep you busy, watching a movie, posting on the fun and distractions forum, going for a walk or writing down your thoughts and feelings.
Its important that when you write down your thoughts and feelings that you try to combine both the positive things and the negative things together, so that you dont end up writing about just the negative things as writing down the negative things alone will create problems. Its also important that you try not to keep your feelings bottled up as this will only add to your problems. Please keep talking to us we are all here for you. Take care of yourself its important that you look after yourself.
Hi, thanks for the replies guys, they helped a lot.
I don't really know what it is that makes me feel so awful, I have depression but I'm on fluoxetine and they recently put the dose up so surely I should be feeling better? I just feel like a failure, as though I have no right to feel like this and i should just be happy and normal like other people I know.
I took a break and stuff so I'm less pressured etc, but I still don't feel safe when I'm on my own. I have dreams about people telling me to go and die, and then I'm in a coffin and theres this panic and I wake up and it's pitch black and it's so scary.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I have to deal with it all the time and I honestly don't thinkk it's ever going to get better.
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
