Hey guys,
sorry to bother again with my useless chats, but I think I have OCD, the more I research, it the more I think I have it. I have mentioned it to my friends and that but no-one really takes me seriously.
There was this time with my Dad and I went mad because he did something (it sounds stupid) I was eating crackers (tehe) and I had 4 there, he took one and I realised I would be eating a odd number of them, so I flipped, and made four more and left the others. But then he just took the **** outta me afterwards. Also I have obsessive thoughts which I cannot control and I have to touch things an even number of times. My thoughts are usually about self-harm and I can just see myself cutting, that triggers me to do it as well, also when I think about memories, they change and stuff and then in my head really bad, graphic things happen and I end up dieing or hurting myself (not purposely) and it just repeats and I cannot control it.
Sorry if I confused anyone, what should I do?
Hazel
xx
I think you should try and talk to your doctor to see if you can get some help and even a diagnosis.
I have been diagnosed with OCD, mine has been mostly based on my thoughts.
I have thoughts about myself dying or getting hurt and the same goes with other people to. However I am not sure this is OCD related. I seem to make up a few stories in my head where bad things happen then I get helped and cared for by other people.
I still get some obsessive thoughts. Like today I saw a lady in a wheelchair. After I walked past her I saw an image of her being hit by a car and dying.
Sorry if I havent helped much. There are websites where you can get more information.
I'm in exactly the same boat as you right now. Like you i get a lot thoughts about someone getting hurt/dying or hurting myself. They used to be triggered i.e. if i saw a someone using knife but now i get them all the time, it could even be when i'm doing something as simple as peeling an orange =/
I haven't really answered your question but your not alone.
Sorry this was no help.
Take care .xx
One thing to remember is that everyone has obsessive compulsive traits.You're certainly not weird or alone. Does it take over an hour of your time in a day? Generally it is considered the disorder if it takes a lot of time up, be it thinking those things, seeing those images, doing compulsions etc.
I think I have OCD too.Mostly because of the obsessive thoughts but also I can't have things pointing at me ,especially sharp things.Sometimes I have to say something three times 'cause I'm scared that if I don't something bad will happen'.Nobody knows it thou and I don't really want to tell anyone either.
As Roby (Fallen Rain) says everyone has obsessive compulsive thoughts, I myself am extremely obsessive and compulsive, everything in my room has to either be in height order or alphabetical order, I have to wash my hands two times, if I do it three times I have to wash them again. Always even, everything has to be planned a day in advance. Now my obsessions aren't to do with OCD but even if they were I would not be diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder because although if someone takes one of my films without asking or even worse puts one in the wrong place I will scream and totally lose it, it does not cause significant distress and take up enough time in my day.
In comparison a friend of mine, for a long time she has had obsessive compulsive traits, she would spend longer than normal washing her hands and she doesn't like throwing things away. Then last year she was doing an experiment at university and her traits developed into full blown OCD she couldnt touch anything that she was wearing when she did the experiment, she stopped sleeping and stayed up all night washing her hands, eventually she couldn't touch anything in her room, she has been working so hard but its taken her a long time, up until recently she has only been able to wear one pair of shoes and not touch the bottom of her bed.
As Roby says, it has to take up a lot of your time to be diagnosed as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, if you think you've got it you should go see your GP, its definitely nothing to be ashamed of.
I'd tell the Doc if I were you sweetie. My psych (your psych, tehe, lol) when he diagnosed me with OCD he put me on sertraline. It was the second time I'd ever seen him and he was really great about it and healpful. Don't be so scared to ask for the healp and treatment that you need and want. He might want you to do some CBT, I dunno but you still need some help with what's going on in your mind.
I do the thing where you touch something a certain amount of times, too.
It's usually in fives for me. It's very weird. But not dangerous or anything with me. Hope you can get help! :)
"I promise that I shall never give up,
and that I'll die yelling and laughing"
- Jack Kerouac
When you do CBT for OCD its different from doing it for BPD which is different from doing it for whatever else, I re-tried CBT after being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, it didn't work but it was still important for me to try it again.
