Accepting medication

[not_so_insig]

I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I have been on medication for 12 years. Yet I struggle to take medication.

I am currently on a depot but when I was on tablets I would refuse to take tablets or only take half the prescribed dose. I am doing a lot better since being on a depot but I very often initially refuse the depot and it takes a discussion with my cpn for me to have it. Sometimes I have refused it outright (earlier on this year I went 6 weeks between depots due to the fact that I refused to have it).

Obviously I am ill otherwise I would have been found out to be a fraud by now. So why do I struggle to accept medication? My regular cpn is off on holiday next time I am due my depot and although another cpn is coming to do my depot I am scared that I will refuse to let anyone else inject me.

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I really struggle with my meds. I feel that I don't need them. That they cause me to be fat and other issues.

I don't see the difference in myself. I had a discussion with my care coordinator about it today and she helped shed some light on it a little. She said that while going through therapy they are important to keep up with because my moods will be all over the place because of dealing with some really hard stuff and still important when i finish therapy because I struggle to regulate my mood.

I think its important to talk about the reasons behind not taking them and why they are important but I do understand your battle with them. I think its important to address your concerns with your team before she does go on holiday.

[not_so_insig]

Thanks everyone.

I think that I will phone my cpn on Wednesday (can't phone her before then because she only works part time ) not only because of this but also because my parents are shortly going on holiday. I drink when they are away so I need her advice/support on this.