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Sectioned
I was sectioned a week ago on Tuesday, brought in on a 136 and placed on section 2. Was really suicidal and totally out of control, and being trapped and imprisoned and having no freedom made me worse. I kicked, screamed, swore at staff, all things I've never done before. Couldn't cope at all, and I overdosed on the ward and was in hospital for almost five days. Thought it was nothing, but the medical docs said I very nearly killed myself, my liver was about to fail, it took ages for them to be okay enough with my blood tests to let me out, even though they weren't 100% happy, I couldn't stand being in the hospital anymore, and I'm back at the acute psych ward now. The doctors here reviewed me, and because I react so badly to being locked in, they've given me a lot more freedom now, which lets me breathe easier, and I don't think I'll have to be here much longer.
Everyone else wants to use this to put more in place, my family, friends, cpn and support worker, want this to be where I get a proper formal diagnosis and maybe start on some kind of medication and work out a better plan for when I leave. I have a tribunal to try and get me off the section 2 on monday, and the best outcome is I get to go home, the worst is I get put onto section 3. ODing probably didn't help.
Because I do have an ASD diagnosis, though, the doctors here are a lot happier to help me get out quicker, because it's not good for me, and they're not sure it'll be helpful to keep me here. All I can think about it getting home. I've had to come clean with my family about a lot, how my mental health is, and all the od's and self harm, and how much I'm struggling, and I had a phone call with my mother which was bad and I told her how much I wanted to die. My brother's fiance, her sister killed herself only a few months ago, so I feel terrible for doing this to them. They don't want the same thing to happen to me. But my priority is to get out of here, and then figure everything out later.
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