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Positive recovery post - 2 years later...
I haven't been on here in years, but i was thinking about this the other day.
Self harm was a big part of my life for several years, starting when I was about 9. I became kind of obsessed with it, and I was always on websites like this indulging myself in my own personal pity party and just perpetuating all my negative emotions.
It's been two years since I last hurt myself at all. My life is completely normal and all things considered really good now. There was a time when i really really didn't think this would ever be possible. But it is. And I urge anyone who is reading this to take a minute and think about going out tomorrow and doing something, anything, that you might do that would be a distraction or just something fun. Because looking at each day like an opportunity for something fun or exciting makes the world so much lighter. And i don't even know exactly how it is I started to "get better". But it did take time and I remember wondering if there would ever be a time in my life where I didn't feel like my self harming was controlling my life. I saw everything in relation to it and around it which was a super toxic way to live my life. I just wanted to say that it is possible.
And i really think the trick is to find whatever kind of coping strategies work for you, and just try going through a day as if self-harming wasn't even an option, or something to think about. As soon as I started thinking like that, my life brightened and opened up in a way that I would never have thought possible.
I hope this didn't sound too preachy because that's not what I'm going for at all. I just want to have people know that it is so very possible to have these kind of destructive habits not even seem like an option. And just two and a half years ago I was about as low as I could get. So please please please just push through another day and keep hope!
I haven't been here in a really really long time, because I haven't felt like I've needed it. This website was a great support to me, but I really hope that one day will come for everyone here where you won't even need it, and almost forget it exists.
Best of luck.
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