Aw :( It sounds like nothing has been going right for you, has it? You must be feeling really hopeless. At work, can you ask for a break? I think it's important that you let them know you're having a hard time and you're being overworked. They should be able to do something about that. Also do you have anyone you're talking to outside of this site? It'd be really good for you to reach out to the people you're connected to who know you best. Trust me, the world would not be better off without you. I know it's an awful feeling and it's so strong that it feels real, it feels like it's true, but it's not. Sometimes people get blinded by their self hatred and they can't see the good things in themselves, even though they exist. When these thoughts come you must remind yourself that it's not you, it's the illness. Sometimes our brains turn against us and trick us into believing lies. You must fight it and not fall for the tricks. Please take care of yourself, okay? You deserve to be alive and you deserve to be happy.
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