I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared to even leave the house incase I see him somewhere. I'm scared to be in the house incase he comes round and figures out that I'm not in and tries to find me.
I can't cope with the voices in my head as there too noisy, it doesn't help that people don't understand that I don't feel safe. I'm trying my best to ignore them because they tell me to do so much bad stuff and I'm almost 2 years free.
I just. keep seeing it, keep feeling it, keep hearing him and have no idea what to do i need distraction and they're so hard to find.
was it my fault?
did i deserve it?
why didn't i stop it?
why was i so stupid?
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
I'm sorry to hear about what happened, it's incredibly difficult to deal with and I'm not surprised you're having these feelings and are frightened <3
Firstly it absolutely 100% was not your fault and in no way did you deserve it. No one deserves to go through what you went through; it is no ones fault but your abusers. You couldn't have done anything to stop them, they are to blame and they hurt you and it was wrong, you aren't stupid at all.
Do you have any support at the moment? Perhaps from friends/family or professional support?
The voices sound quite intense at the moment, do you find anything helps to reduce them?
Take care.
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
I'm sorry to hear about what happened, it's incredibly difficult to deal with and I'm not surprised you're having these feelings and are frightened <3
Firstly it absolutely 100% was not your fault and in no way did you deserve it. No one deserves to go through what you went through; it is no ones fault but your abusers. You couldn't have done anything to stop them, they are to blame and they hurt you and it was wrong, you aren't stupid at all.
Do you have any support at the moment? Perhaps from friends/family or professional support?
The voices sound quite intense at the moment, do you find anything helps to reduce them?
Take care.
Sorry I've not been online, I didn't realise poeple had replied to this, I have some close friends who know what happened and they're really good with me when things are difficult evne hwen I'm texting them at 2am....
I use a lot of distractions and try to remember I'm safe but it's not working so well at the moment.
xxxx
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Originally Posted by Laura2.0
It was definitely not your fault and you definitely didn't deserve any of this. And you are definitely not stupid.
Do you have any professional you could talk to, family or friends?
I have some close friends who know what happened and they're really good with me when things are difficult evne hwen I'm texting them at 2am....
it really feels like I deserved it, it was all my fault to start with, I knew he wasn't nice from being in school with him, if I had never agreed to go out with him maybe this wouldn't have happened, maybe I would have known not to be so stupid, maybe I would have just been 'normal' xxxx
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
*hugs* it's not your fault- noone asks to be treated that way
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
As the others have said, it is in no way your fault and no one deserves to be hurt. The only person at fault here is your abuser. You couldn't have stopped them.
It's good to hear you have good friends who are there for you.
Perhaps it'd help you to speak to a trained professional about all this?
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
No, you couldn't know what would happen and it is not stupid.
Have you talked to your friends about this?
*nods* my friends know what happened.
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*hugs* it's not your fault- noone asks to be treated that way
it scares me, makes me feel stupid, like it's all i should be treated like and all i should have is that kind of treatment.
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Originally Posted by Mix Tape
Hey honey,
As the others have said, it is in no way your fault and no one deserves to be hurt. The only person at fault here is your abuser. You couldn't have stopped them.
It's good to hear you have good friends who are there for you.
Perhaps it'd help you to speak to a trained professional about all this?
x x x
I tried to talk to a professional about it but they didn't understand and just told me that there wasnt a lot they could do i'm so angry and frustrated all i want to do right now is hide.
xx
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
