not safe

[Zombie..]

I dont feel safe right now
my husband and nephew are with me
but there both playing games and i dont want to disturb them
my voices are very loud and i took tonight medication as usual
i have tried sleeping but i dont want to sleep on my own as my husband is playing games until 3 am
my OCD is bad at the moment keep thinking am going to stab my husband
with the veggie knife
i feel really bad about the knife being there am not safe
Also i want to self injure with it as well i have no tools because my husband used the last one fixing the cooker glue stuff for our oven
he says he not buying any more

i feel that i need his permission to cut
i cant drink alcohol or take drugs ( well apart from my meds )
am still starving myself but with his permission ( he tells me how many calories i should eat )
i have been biting myself just to feel some sort of pain

am not safe

[Patent Pending]

I think you need to reach out to your husband. He would rather you stay safe than play a game I'm sure. Try to speak to him.

x x x

[Snow White.]

I agree I think reaching out right now is so important, more than a game and maybe you can ask him about that? So he can reassure you it is okay. It's been a while since you posted how are you doing now?

[Tig]

Thinking of you <3

I hope today has been better for you. x

[Zombie..]

yesterday i took me medication like my psycch had told me to and it knocked me out for all day and all night ( only up for taking my night meds )
am not going to take two a day just one
my husband think there too strong for me so am just having the one now
this morning i still feel out of it

[Patent Pending]

Well done for taking your medication but I know it can be hard when it knocks you out for so long. Remember though that if they're new medication the seative nature might ease a little after a while of taking them - when I first took one of mine I was sleeping 18+ hours a day; now I get a comfortable eight.

x x x