This feels like a relapse

sunshine100 · 27-09-2013, 09:33 PM

It's awful but all I've been able to think all day is 'I just want to f*****g die'.

I can't even cry, no tears will come. Not eating, sleeping, avoiding socialising.

What...why would this suddenly happen? How do I stop it? Any support/advice would be great.

LegoGirl · 27-09-2013, 11:04 PM

Not sleeping eating and avoiding socialising doesn't sound sudden.
Can you think back to where this started and what was happening?

What kind of support do you have?

Are there friends or family you can talk to?

A doctor you can see or a help line you can call?

sunshine100 · 29-09-2013, 01:34 AM

Thanks for replying.

I suppose now I think about it it's slowly built up over about a week, but it's at a point I can't ignore it anymore.

I live with my partner but he's got to live away for 3 months for work. I have friends who know but I can't find the words to reach out a lot of the time. Last time I asked to be referred back to my CMHT the GP didn't understand the process and didn't do anything. I tried to reach out but I'm in the kind of low now where it's too hard.

LegoGirl · 29-09-2013, 04:48 PM

You could try a different GP, not understanding the process is just rubbish treatment and not good enough.

Or try PALS if your GP keeps being crap. You deserve help, and much better support than this.

Could you write something down to give to a friend?

I do understand the low where it all feels too hard but you sound like you really need some support.

Could you email like a local branch of mind? Often they have advocates who can help with this kind of thing?