I believe I am suffering from ptsd. My parents were both severe diabetics ever since I can remember I was taking care of them, my parents seperated when I was 16 my mom moved back to pa. While my father and I stayed in Ohio. My dad fell into a deep depression and started taking his pain pills and going out drinking. Until one morning he was screaming for me. He told me to call the paramedics. I did. He then looked at me said I love you and fell back. He was pronounced dead at my house. A year later my mom had died in her sleep. I then fell into an addiction of pills and cutting myself. I relive my fathers death everyday and ask myself is is worth the pain? It has been seven years. I recently went through three ectopic pregnancies and now I can not have kids lack of my fallopian tubes. My depression has been getting the best of me. I don't want to be around people my mind wanders to bad places, my bf says I have nothing to be depressed about. And I find my stress going up because I feel that no one understands me. Everyone expects me to be happy go lucky all the time and it's taking a tole on me. I don't know how to take care of myself emotionally because I was and still making sure I put others needs before mine. So please any advice would be appreciated. Thank you
